Simplicity

the ending

I’ve been torturing myself during the last few days with the burning question of how “Secret Garden” will end. I’ve been going crazy googling other people’s theories and running plausible and likely scenarios through my mind. GUHHH. I hate the fact how I obsess over knowing things before they actually happen. Maybe I dislike surprises. Maybe because they might be bad.

I get so bothered when dramas end unhappily. What Happened In Bali. Everyone died. I’m Sorry I Love You. They both died. Stairway to Heaven. The chick died. IRIS. The dude got killed. 

But sometimes an unhappy ending is the most fit. It mimics reality more closely. Because people die all the damn time. 

People watch dramas to satisfy and engorge themselves in lives not of their own. They indulge themselves in the overly blown up dramatic lives of the characters. They find themselves yearning for the unreal romantic relationships that are formed in the most outrageous circumstances. Dramas are the puppeteers of our fragile emotions. We cry. Laugh idiotically. Scream and fume. Blush. And most importantly, we thirst and hunger like starved, untamed beasts for the next episode.

We are so easy. I might just run over cute, innocent squirrels and hit numerous, fat deers to see the final episode of Secret Garden. 

Hey did you fall from a tree? ……Because you are nuts! Yes! I am nuts!!!!!! 

i will miss

waking up at 12pm every day. Sleep is awesome. 

i love

kate winslet.

watched ‘revolutionary road’ a couple nights ago. her and leo make the greatest pair.

now watching ‘the reader’ 

2010

I made a resolution for 2010 to become more independent. It’s 2011, and I am proud to say that I have grown so much this year. It’s nice not feeling so dependent on one person. It was hard though. 

I have a new neighbor. I think he is cute. I only saw his face during the late night. Maybe I am just convincing myself that he is cute. 

I had a burger at Farm Burger with two friends today. I usually don’t like burgers but it was surprisingly very good!! You can taste the truthness of the 100% grass fed cows. 

I had a long conversation with a good friend today about relationships. I am pretty lonely. But I think it’s because it’s so cold outside. I miss having someone to cuddle with. 

I got a Christmas card in the mail from my FG leader today. Made my day :D~ I’m excited to go back to school. I wonder what God has in store for me~~~

2011. I’m going to try and post more on tumblr. I suck at keeping up with things.

Happy Holidays~